i dont know how to live but Ive got a lot of toys

it's shocktober.

it's the month of the rosary... so i will be doing that every evening.

i have very few rules i live by (that don't include numbers and letters) - but here are a few idea i've been thinking.

cremation. since the vatican lifted the ban on creation i am okay with it - but i have this thing that if i say "it's okay to cremate me - but you MUST bury my ashes" - what if some hippie child i have decides to spread them on the jersey shore - specifically point pleasant - or fuck - what if they knew how much i loved the mountain and put them there!?! so it makes me just say bury me with the other catholics in holy cross (yes, in jersey) -and besides what would i look like in the afterlife if i was a pile of dust!!!!

i changed my mind - don't cremate me, bury me in my birkenstocks, my number five shirt and my holy jeans - and no underwear!

another rule.

i hate breaking this one and rarely do. sometime in the beginning of september i break out the summer box - and as i wash things i put them away for next summer. and despite the fact that there may be a really warm day - i will not go into that box. sometimes it's hard - but i say even if it's in the eighties and it's october - i will not wear out of season clothes.

and i judge others on this behavior - i know not so nice - but just because it's nice out put the tank top and shorts away.

another rule.

undies.

i have never/nor will i ever - have panties with boy "a" and wear them around boy "b" - i have too much love for boy "a" and boy "b" to think about boy "a" when i'm with boy "b."

that's why the hopechest undies are so important - and something that worked out on the coolside - is i left a bunch of undies in rva and just recently got them back.

church last night was good - i read that shit like a pro and i looked appropriate (weather and churchlike) - then i went to the meeting and saw a friend i haven't seen in quite awhile. i knew i was in the right place - and really believed it.

i came home and knitted a bit more - and fell asleep like a normal person and didn't set any kind of alarm.

awe-some.

and that's a picture of a digital rosary - heaven help us.