i'd die if i wasn't already dead!

i wish all shows and movies had the blurb at the bottom like the hills and the city and the real world do - with the song info.

i always have to google a few lyrics and well - i just don't have the time.

when you mentioned spm in that post it made me think that i am not sure if i ever told you what a real impact he had on my life - with the whole vampire thing.

you know he used to say that we were the real vampires (ie the cool kids) - i was working at the credit union - he was at that office that he had to pay the money back to - and he told me that's NOT who we were. that we were like vampires who became our true selves at night and slumbered in the day.... that we could stay young forever... and that if we fed on the normal folk and were good to each other we could rule the world.

i think that's what i see in the vampire-phenomena and he was prolly right.

of course - i'm hesitant to even say these things in a public forum like this - because i truly believe that it is information that shouldn't be given away but sought.

and i never had as much insight about some "crunchy" things as i have since you've been letting me in a bit - the sugar shit and the analogy was so right on - but for me too i have food issues out the butt. i not only feel bad when i eat things i don't want to but i def pull a tara and then punish myself for it. here lately i have simply said no when asked if i wanna go to a buffet (good lord) or if i want a piece of halloween candy or a slice of pizza (why just have one....?)

ps i can not ever see anything but bill's face - that poster has frustrated me since the summer