the only thing that smells better than that lamb perfume i want - was bm last night.i miss a dude's smell so bad - when i first started hanging out with nick i borrowed stole a polo undershirt when i was cold and it got me by until it really needed washing ... but last night i may have slept like a baby due to the meds (and missed the starstorm) but it could've been smelling like him last night.
and yeah - it stirred up a lot of tears and feelings - but i think even more than that - it gave me some closure - i didn't get that in february. i didn't even know i needed it. i don't even know what to do with it.
i got kirby later - and even though i didn't pick up - i know i relapsed a bit. don't forget the relationship junkie (i will never say sex addict) in me needs attention and even more - needs to give attention... and i tried to do it here... i tried other ways... but there's nothing quite like getting your hands in someone's hair - and everything else that i missed.
i'm thirty-four and i parked.
and parked and parked.
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