i feel the dream in me expire

so. yeah.

the weekend is always really really really out there.

i know where i'm not usually and forget where i am.

friday nick came and took me for a ride to dinner and then we went to a meeting (yes - he went) (and for the record he doesn't use that he says but the last meeting i heard him going of was in december/january of 2007) he brought me a present and he gave it to me and said - there is no doubt in my mind that this smells better than bm. it was that lamb perfume i wanted.

i got the thought behind it.

the rain came down sideways on saturday - and i needed to get out. he came back to bedford (i'm telling you from richmond again) and we went shopping for shoes for tomorrow (court!) (or courthouse) and hit another meeting.

i crocheted zrg and bdg cowboy hats - they are both buzz lightyear turned cowboys - and believe you me i could've bought them like stetson hats but this is def more cute. i gave them to them today and they really really really liked them - pictures to follow and prove it.

then today i went to richmond - went and watch zrg play flag-football, parked and went to see wtwta and then taco smell and then dropped them off.

yeah - all today - now it's 10:09 and i gotta leave around five. sleep is prolly not gonna happen.

jitter and vin

captains' meeting

the bears

love him!

i haven't really been the same since i hung out with bm - i lied that night. and i felt awful the next day - so i told on myself to a bunch of people. kirby said i truly did relapse - for someone like me getting the flu pumped into your stomach it's just as bad as picking up. i don't know if justin would be considered switching addictions - but bm is like a drug. it makes me feel good to get under some dude - and it makes me feel even better to think i can leave it like i want to (ie one slice of pizza, one pill... one drink) but i know that's not true.

i know that much.