caught up in a whirlwind, can't catch my breath

as you know i follow mr. pete on twitter - it's no big deal but i have noticed a trend.

if you read his shit he is a very insecure man - always showing the same picture (okay, he's linked it about five times in a week) where granted he looks really sexy (dressed up like a cop) but it screams insecurities each time he posts it.

and he's always putting up headshots - saying looky how ugly i am... and even if one percent of his nineteenhundred followers tweet back... "no, pete, you're the sexiest m-fer out there (uncircumcised maybe)" and instantly = he feels better.

like a drug.

we went to the shore and i smelled the ocean - remembered and let go of some things that kinda were symbolic - it was a plan that i followed through on and it felt so good.

me and my dad.

dad!

on the way home we almost had - at least - five accidents. of course my dad would disagree but driving here hasn't changed - as a matter of fact it's worse. i have no doubt that i probably used drugs to mask how nervous i got driving here.

we hung out and then went out to dinner - we went to the bonefish grill and i got the ahi tuna. it was cooked perfectly. i skipped the starch and substituted for more vegetables.

at dinner i saw a guy i went to high school with - and what are the odds. i hate to toot my own horn but compared to this guy and the peeps i saw on facebook (note: on a fake account) - i look pretty cute for my thirties. i'm sorta glad i didn't peak in high school.

i finally figured out that i can not figure out photoshoppe. so i asked tm to help and he said cool. i mean not only is that big of him - but gahlee - i feel good.

here's why:

not only can i admit today that i don't know everything and ask for help but i don't have to be hateful to tm - i mean we both said stuff, did stuff and blah blah blah that wasn't cool - but that doesn't mean i gotta walk around with hate in my heart forever and this is what (i think) friends do for each other.

and when tm delivered (without hate in his heart) - he delivered to the millionth degree. i am not fronting either - it's something that makes this gift one of those gifts that i can't wait for my peeps to open.

thanks tm.