i saw a magic show last night - but for some reason that song ... candy shop was in my mind. i guess i wanted it to be magic shop but i knew it wasn't. the best part of the show - or it could've been the worst was this dude had a "paddle" that held six cards - three up one side three down the other. he had a piece of paper folder up under a clip on the other side .... he had us switching out the cards - and finally card number three ended up on the "top" - and he had me read the paper and sure enough it was the card we flipped out to the selected card - A SEVEN OF CLUBS!!!! evil i tell ya - EVIL!
it was part of therapy to remind us that while clean we gotta live life and step outside meetings once in awhile.
the fifteenth will be nine months - and i still go to a meeting usually every day. SOMETIMES with the exception of wednesday when i do a whole night of churchin - but on monday, tuesdays and saturdays i'm usually at two.
i'm working tonight - i mean it's good stuff but i hate it.
if you're keeping track of vin - he's being 'two' - and wants to go home so he's protesting drinking and just laying in the hospital bed being grumpy and looking at books (re: remember zrg doing this at that age in the book nook?) - so today they are pulling the iv, letting him get thirsty and giving him full-on milk - i can't wait to get my hands on him.
in the course of all this me and jdg have resolved a little bit of our issues - plus with 99% of the d behind us it's SO easy to concentrate on the kids - and lemme say since they are so posi - that makes our relationship posi and it's been anything but for about three-plus years.
dr. oliver pushed up my luvox - he also said my sex&love addiction is very common to be surfacing so strongly just about now - my desire to use has completely left my body (just for today) - he didn't quite know how bad the ocd was and this ritualizing log was more than he expected so the dose is going up this week and then next week too.
the only other thing that's going on is - well - i am puring my kisses on somebody right now. i'm pretty happy about it - and i'm happy i haven't figure what's going on.
it's not my business.
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