so.

1. i had gotten to work on time - i looked cute - i was ready to chat the night away and the itdept fucked me royally.

i called bv - i showed him the message i was getting - instead of a coworker ratting me out he thought it was a dhcp server was down... i was certain i was gonna get fired.

eight hours of that shit without my laptop was going to be hell.

pure hell.

2. fast forward.

sometime around three o'clock i got a phonecall from someone i sorta work with - and i don't wanna say too much because it is bringing up fears that no one really even knows i have - (unless i work the twelve steps with you or i came outta your birth canal) - and well.. i was harassed, threatened and scared by the end.

i haven't really processed what's about to happen yet - and it's not good.

none of it is.