you'd put an arrow through my heart

the best part of waking up ....

is realizing it was all a dream and you're not really bald or dating a cop.

that is the kinda night it was - ALL night. but now it's morning and i don't need to settle for that goon (who was at least seven feet tall and had swinging monkey arms).

before i went to sleep i had the most awesome conversation with jlp ever - well maybe not ever - but we needed it. grant it the topic wasn't awesome but it was exactly what we needed when we needed it.

yesterday was palm sunday - i guess it's like the catcher in the rye when you're growing up - but it always freaks me out that the romans were gonna let jesus go and his own people sold him out. i mean grant it - you can't go around saying you're the son of god but you never know.

recently i told my sponsor that someone is visiting me in my dreams. now my mom - freaked out. said that hearing voices is on the scary side of mental disease - my sponsor told me she believes it's spiritual and that the universe is too connected to not believe.

my mom = the jews (hung me out to dry!).

so a friend gave me a sex&submission subscription for my birthday. three months is up on the ninth and i'm super sad. i got a mess load of porn but there's still two weeks to get maybe all the derrick pierce stuff - i dunno. i can't totally get behind steve holmes although his age plays a big part of me "liking" him - i doubt if i ever get kidnapped and was a "willing slave" would it be at the hands of someone totally hot like pete. it would totally be a scary romanian dude - who would probably not only have enough smegma to choke on - but would sell my kidneys when he's done with me.