a feline casanova

so there's this guy here - robert - he's short but he was kinda in charge of the whole show. and since i came back i haven't seen him.

so i needed a new "p" key for one of the full-timers and went to knock on his door -

"he's no longer here!" - i heard.

wow - i didn't know that.

so i immediately thought it was that constant boner he had and he was fired for jerking off or something. i thought my little bit of internerding can't be that bad - dude got fired for having an eternal boner.

but nope - he's going back to the shit - iraq.

now i feel bad - and i bet he's the one that had me blocked and junk that time. regardless that kinda karma shouldn't bring war.

they also had a wellness meeting here this morning at six. you got to come in early and thus it was overtime to learn about how to eat healthy - of course i wouldn't get overtime since i'm part-time but i didn't come anyway. it's funny to see all these people grab at free bananas when later on they'll be back at hardees and kfc for lunch - if someone paid them to come in early to learn about eating cheetos the same crew would be here and they'd eat up the cheetos too!

i took a banana for breakfast.

if i take this vacation that i've been thinking about i might come back a new woman. i just think it would be nice to warm up and get away and then come back and take on this move with one hundred percent. the only problem (and there are two really) - is that i get so nervous to travel now.

i didn't know i was a nervous (better word would be scared) person. sure - i used to travel around the country for jimmy and around the world with jl - but - i was always high. always.

then it prolly didn't help that the first thing i did clean (bus to nj) i ran into a drug addict offering me seboxone.

the answer will come to me soon i'm sure.

i was talking to jamesdeen in ba chat the other day - and he had said that he works with kink three times a month - between sex&submission and public disgrace.

well - i see he did two public disgrace scenes in the last year - and a handful of s&s. are they shelving all these scenes for a later date.... i dunno. if i would've thought about it i might've asked him where one learns to become a dom.

there are some standard things i think you gotta be able to pull off: choking (well), spitting, titty torture, insulting, humiliation - but then everyone adds their own spice (thus, making a good dom).

i think it's just as important to have an obedient sub. it's not just you get tied up and fucked - no - there is a certain willingness and eagerness that makes a woman seem slutty enough to want and desire cock the way she'll get it from a guy who's willing to go the extra length.