the brightest light that shines

so - that's life.
i mean you didn't expect the us to win win - although when landon donovan scored we went a little crazy (jdg punched a whole in the ceiling) but to be let down later - oh well.
there are some people who don't watch and that's fine but i feel a little part of when i watch.

tomorrow! is the closing - later today (after footie) i will pack the car with it's first load. ;)
holy shit people - it's happening.
my mom is in texas - so she won't be there tomorrow morning to help me 'get through it' - so i was whining (i know) to tj about it and he offered to be there and i kinda jumped on it.
having him 'someone' there - then have someone to go buy my fridge with and the little stuff that it would be awesome to not be alone.
but now it's getting sooooo complicated - he's going to be there. i asked him not to tell me how he's coming in.
cause at first i was leaving even earlier to get him at richmond airport - then i was gonna pick him up at a hotel in lynchburg - and i was getting so confused a pulled a "tara."
it was the first one in a long time - but i was yelling and screaming at someone who just wanted to help me.
hung up, broke up, pick-up'd and apologized.
whew.
so after i almost destroyed that (because frankly he didn't need/deserve that) - i realized it's because i'm starting to get feelings for him and i'm being hurt over and over and over by bm.
i gave and told him i thought that's what it was and as he said - well - let's have that talk.
we're together - and i know it's a distance but with na, and moving and kids, and work and so on i don't have more time for a boyfriend.
he thought maybe getting rid of bm would be hard - because of - let's face it this blog - but when given the opportunity to have a man be there (my man) - it's semi-emotional.

so to make a long story short - he's gonna be in richmond later tonight. and he rented a car to meet me at the lawyer's office - after that i'll do some business with him at the house (wink)(and fuck i'm stressed) and then it's errands, contractors and stuff!

this germany team looks mighty handsome - i don't care if it was a goal or not - england sucks anyway.