because you're bringing me in and now you're kicking me out again

so don't call tha po-lease just yet but this morning i watched a little of pete wentz on youtube too - some songs live like "mr. brightside" in connecticut a very in your face tm nod - but anyway i watched some of his papp videos while ashlee was pregnant and he was all like "move out the fucking way she's pregnant" -that's super husband like. jdg did shit like that - when you're with child(ren) you always vulnerable so that reminded me of jdg but not really.

i need a set of bunk beds - there are a pair in rva on craigslist but there are no bedrails - it's like jail if you fall off you're fucking done. i don't know if i want my kids to experience this yet!
another thing i took out of their lives before any/all of them need to know is tray lunches.
tray lunches used to be a great way to clean out the fridge - squeeze in a few grapes - veggies - and so on. but once you're food is slopped on a tray (even if it is by the male kitchen workers sticking your "kite" in your mashies) - you can honestly say it's pretty inhumane to eat food like that and that takes all the fun out of it.

speaking of the 'j' word - last year (in 14 days) - when i got home i weighed about twenty-five pounds more but it was a little bit more muscle so i don't know what's better.
i remember putting lotion on my legs and feeling all the definition in my calves and whatnot - but now i'm skinny and my ass is still fat.
i don't think that god wants me to have a little ass - it's this thing of it's own. i often wonder how big can it really be when i can still fit in 4's - smalls and sometimes 2's and i don't mean tight - but i know what i see/feel when i'm naked.
it's fat.

soccer started with another catholic group of men. i was thinking while watching the slovaks noses (shut up) and then seeing the coach: all men get big noses (except my dad - he still has a perfectly straight little-ish but still manly nose - i pray one of my kids get that nose) - but what is ideal is for a man to have the most perfect big nose in his twenties because by god his nose will be epic when he's in the prime of his life.

and now the italians are on - great day that cannavaro is the sexiest mother fucker alive.


btw - we would drop our kites with our trays - in our cups.