kings dominion was pretty cool - i had to apologize to zrg after i got home and realized that i was kinda harsh and not exactly the mom i want to be.
i mean being a mom isn't always a thing you do perfectly - but this was out of character for me.
zrg didn't want to go on the same rollercoasters he did last year and wasn't even following bdg on rides that jericho would've been allowed on.
of course - because i'm perfect - i told him that i wasn't proud of him.
jdg had mentioned the word negativity or something like it and i started to internalize it and by the time it was his bedtime i rang him and apologized. sure he was like - "oh yeah right" - and didn't hold any of it - but you never know if that thought will probably creep on him when courage would be a better option.
so i prayed an extra rosary to mary before i fell asleep (barely) hoping she would guide my words better in the future.
i did do a few rides myself and let my kids watch me "almost die" - each time i did something they were like - you are prolly gonna die ma - and i thought of how fucked up it would've been if i did die. so after two rides (lines were non-existent) i called it quits and i paired up with brae the rest of the day.
i know i can't remember but two memories when i was four - and really only a handful from when i was seven but when i was four i remembered everything and when i was seven i remembered everything too - so even if they never can recall yesterday when they're in their thirties i can give it to them now and that feels eternally awesome.
speaking of awesome - a not-so-awesome thing happened yesterday. i got one of those "your cc is under suspicion" letters that happen when you use your credit a lot when its laid dormant in your wallet. but holy fuck someone tried to get money on my credit card from a money transfer thing in swisse bank or some shit. they first charged 1cent to some espresso shop - found out it worked and then tried over $700. - and it was declined.
thank god for annoying banks.
No comments:
Post a Comment