the surface breaks

i hate talking about boys.

i do... but i might as well get it over with.  i don't know if cheated is the right word - or whatever - but i hooked up with someone here in richmond and of course i didn't have to tell tj but i did and well - we're calling it quits.  it has nothing to do with rva dude (at all) but more with me being pretty sure there is no room for a dude in my life right now.

i guess i knew that before i hooked up with dude - but i wanted to be sure.

don't get me wrong - i still love sexytime but i can't handle the phone calls, the drama, the no phone calls and everything else that having someone to answer to carries - i want to be able to not call someone and it be okay.  

what i'm still saying is i like being single.

but i'm gonna do single and no sexytime either for awhile.

new jersey was good stuff - i missed it as usual (and missed my dad and a few friends too) - but we did ellis island and liberty everything on friday.  growing up there i never really did that shit and it was solid fun.  saturday we spent at the jersey shore - bay head - and then sunday we drove home.

i have some pictures somewhere - camera number 2 is missing.  at least i know this time it has no nekkid pictures - and that alone makes looking for it not as panic-y.

i'm headed to bedford for a few days... i gotta work a few shifts (thank god) and then saturday i'll be having the kids for the weekend so i gotta get back for that.  

i really don't want to go to bedford for work much longer - my boss is leaving town at the end of the month for a week and i'm gonna cover for her.  but after the next couple weeks i'm gonna look for something here.  going to bedford for work and whatnot makes the trip horrible in my head - if i was just going back to see friends or a meeting or whatever i wouldn't be in such a funk the whole time.

jobs have to go.

i have a few projects on my hooks - and that feels good too! i need to get back to what makes me happy and to leave the boys alone.  i swear - no more boy blogging - i'm gonna give it until november 1st - october is the month i dedicate to mary. and well - it will feel better to start now.