living mathematics

i burned a disc - i remember making cds in 1999 and 2000 - then jdg happened, tm and bm - (funny it was jlm before all them - what's up with the ms?) - but anyway - yeah. i got a laptop that i kinda love - and i wasn't able to burn anything until i tried.

funny, huh?

trueblood last night made me laugh again. jason is pretty fcuking funny - his character is prolly my favorite.

hbo is really good with the soapoperas. i absolutely loved oz, carnivale, the wire and now trueblood. today we're having thanksgiving in august.

i am riding the fence with crush. and even though everyone is saying to wait (and he's okay with that) - i just wanna crawl up on him and snuggle.

and snuggle.

and snuggle.

and snuggle.

i remember when ____ used to sing to me.

that might've been three times.

I said "I'll see what I can do."

i knew i was in love two times in my life - (besides when with my children) - once was on the t and the other was in trenton at the train station. i feel very lucky for this. and here's the deal:

i don't want to out do these. i don't want to surpass them. and i definitely don't want to forget them. if you're lucky to forget life and step back and say 'this is love - this is what life is all about' - even once - i think you can die happy.

i won't try today or tomorrow - but if another one of these moments happens i won't forget to acknowledge it - but i know one thing - you can't plan for it.

i gotta go to lynchburg today - a few errands, some shopping and lunch with my wedding date. i guess that's a good sign. i knew i'd see him again - it was a good date.

today i'm wearing a bigfoot tshirt i got at goodwill - a&f shorts - big belt and big hoop earrings.

i'm saying - cute!

He who climbs upon the highest mountains laughs at all tragedies, real and imaginary.

dear you:

i have been thinking for sure. it's hard not to.

BUT.

i think that when i first met you i would think of you the exact same way today.

i really want the best for you. i pray that you're okay and i hope that you're better than that.

we had such fun together and since we aren't talking anymore - i think it's only logical that you know that even without an end - we certainly don't need one.

it's only a matter of time before we bump into each other (that's whata everyone tells me)- but i think i can hold off for a minute before i run into you.

even though we both would have to agree that we should've ended things back in august - 08 - the more we pushed it the worse it got.

maybe you learned what you needed - i hope i figure it out pretty soon.

love,

tara