they lie awake at night and dream of you

ugh.

i didn't get that list done - not that it's too late but good grief i need just do it so i don't feel so overwhelmed and ruin this weekend.

so - bdg is still sick - jdg thinks he should stay home.  so instead of doing the three boys and leaving bdg at home - i told jase let's switch up and i'll take zrg today and the rest tomorrow (hoping bdg is better by tomorrow.)

feel me? a change in routine and THAT list not getting done and i'm wound up like a fucking top.

i should hate jdg right now - but when we discussing this situation about the kids last night i told him i was watching mobsters on the bio channel (it was the henry hill episode) and he started his henry/karen "why'd you flush the cocaine" impersonation and it quickly faded.  i think jdg just wants the best for the kids (ie bdg getting better) and he's not trying to punish me by keeping my kids from me.

just because at one point in my life my motives were purely self-centered doesn't mean everyone is out to get me.

did i mention i'm going to start smoking? well - that's not entirely true.  but where i work everyone who does smoke takes at least three more breaks than i do - sometimes i even go with just so i can get a break in there and come back smelling liking a smoker and my nose running.

i'm going to start a campaign for non-smokers to get "reward breaks" - a company should reward its non-smokers - who surely miss less work due to illness, cost less to insure and probably/most definitely work more efficiently without all the racing thoughts of more and more nicotine.

OH! i know i didn't mention this one - but someone (and her two friends) walked in my front door last night.  at first they knocked (how polite) but then they just opened the door and walked in.  i was on the couch crocheting and watching the tv and these people holding flowers and food walked right in.  i said - UM HELLO? and they were apologizing that it was obviously the wrong house all the way down the front walk - the least they could've done was leave me some food or flowers.  

now i'm petro that they saw my goods (and maybe the was their modus operandi to case houses) and see where they are gonna get their next laptop, big tv and other stealables. 

GREAT - like i wasn't dealing with enough!