Tuesday, December 7, 2010

i'm your sea of devotion

so my mind sometimes thinks that matt & kim cd - should be called matt & tim.  not only do the songs remind me of beats i thought maybe he'd make (before i heard what he was doing) but it reminds me of a real winter trip.
it's sorta sad.
i doubt there's anything behind this post although i feel there is.

tomorrow i am heading back to bedford for a day or two.  i have some business to take care of - and then i'm gonna have lunch with a friend on thursday.  
today! however! today - i did three things on the list - i was like - FUCK YOU LIST and started crossing things off and as a matter of fact just to feel better about myself i wrote things down on the list that i did - JUST so i can cross them off.
it was like i was on a manic high or something - but i was in and out of stores, state agencies and offices - i just felt like i had a second wind... 
i ended the productivity with getting the flu mist (lying that i wasn't sick - still feeling gross) and then picking up dinner for the kids and doing a visit at jdg's.  
brae isn't quite 100% and since the temperature won't quite clear thirty i thought it'd be better to visit at his house.

i've been really praying to mary to help me figure out this whole guy thing - she had it tough yknow.  her relationship with joseph started off really fucked up - but he always got her.  
and i'm praying that jl can be understanding and i can allow him to be - i'm a handful of a girlfriend and usually when the "next move" is on the horizon i sabotage the entire fucking thing.
i'm going to allow god to move me through what's next - starting with church tomorrow.  
celebrating the woman that makes me want to be a better mother and finally - a better partner in my relationship - can only be done at mass.

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