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i want that watch - but here's the deal - what time is it?

is it quarter to six? if that's the case .... i think that might be the watch for me.

i also want a new jersey state police shirt that i saw on the most-powerful ebay.

i'll see what my funds look like.

on a less consumer note - i know some of y'all know that zrg has a few issues. he has sensory motor integration issues - along with a few other minor things on the autistic spectrum... but let's focus (or try to) on his mom. i took this asperger's test online. and while others are scoring in the teens and even single digits - i scored a 42. i think it's pretty obvious that maybe i got that shit too.

zrg is doing so much better - even playing sports and shit - and i think they said bill gates has this shit too - so me and zrg aren't in that bad of company.

edit post: my mom took it and got an eighteen. i'm fucked.

i can change the world with my own two hands

dear you:

tomorrow morning we'll be hanging out again. you'd be surprised how excited - but nervous i am. today i had a moment where i cried but not for me - and it wasn't anything that happened yet. it was the anticipation of you growing up and ANYBODY hurting you.

you don't even know how you are growing up in my heart and your compassion and sense of humor are the things i recognize from when you were a baby.

you were the first proof i ever had that god was real.

your brothers were the second, third and fourth reason i wanna do the next right thing.

love,

mommy